Tuesday, November 29, 2016
Be the change!
I'm seeking 10+ people who will donate 10 bucks to one of the following causes, your choice. I WILL MATCH your 10 bucks with 10 of my own, for the cause you choose.
First 25 people to respond in the comments below can play (meaning, I'll donate a total of $250).
1) Partners in Health (also site is matching donations today so turn $10 into 40!)
https://donate.pih.org
2) Sacred Stone Camp (no DAPL)
http://sacredstonecamp.org
3) ACLU
https://www.aclu.org
4) Planned Parenthood
https://www.plannedparenthood.org
5) The Trevor Project
http://www.thetrevorproject.org
If you wanna play, say so in the comments and then follow the provided links and post a screenshot of your donation. I'll match your $10 and do the same.
Why am I doing this? Why don't I just donate quietly? Because doing activism is inherently communal. And because it can be fun! And because the more we support these worthwhile groups the more they can do to make the world a better place.
"Be the change!"
#givingtuesday
#unselfie
#friendchallenge
#bethechange
Sunday, May 24, 2015
insomnia, crying and other fun pregnancy happenings like retraining a 3 year old dog!
Dear Readers,
FYI -this blog may turn very MiM-ish (Mothers in Medicine a wonderful blog to follow if you don't already) by the way.
I am now in my final month of pregnancy or 35+5 in OB speak. She could come at any time, preferable after 37 weeks but before 39 so that I get a term baby girl with maximum maternity leave. I'm already contracting but they are sporadic and not painful so I'm sure just practice at this point.
I'm just glad we have made it this far and besides being smallish (10-25%ile for size) she seems perfect. She is currently breech so still hoping for a big switch but I've also resigned myself to the fact that a scheduled section between 39 and 40 weeks will most likely be the outcome and is not the end of the world. I purposely had no birth plan so there is nothing to ruin or disappoint me when I don't have the perfect birth. Any birth will be perfect as long as she arrives safely.
I am SO close to being done with pedi residency. I just got back from vacation/babymoon which was amazing and now the only thing standing between me and graduation is three days of adolescent clinic, one overnight call and five 1/2 day continuity clinics. I'll work until I deliver but since I'm on research this coming month I'll be focusing on setting up my Pedi Neuro projects. I can't wait!
In other news we decided to do some intensive training with Sancho prior to baby girl's arrival so there is that. We are currently less than one day in and it is emotionally difficult for me, I think I've been crying more hours than not. Coupled with insomnia, averaging 2-4 hours of sleep/day and hormones and I'm an emotional wreck!
We had him in a board and train while we were away for two weeks and he lost quite a bit of weight from the stress and not eating. And they used a pinch collar for corrections which caught his neck a few times and left a rather nasty looking sore. I know he is fine and it probably doesn't even bother him but it looks awful and I hate to have to correct him when he doesn't listen... But I'm going to do this. We need Sancho to be at 100% with recall and commands by the time baby girl arrives. I have no doubts he will be great with her but he is a pitbull and there are so many misconceptions that we can't afford to have him not listen on a walk, someone witnesses him pulling or snapping at another dog and it is perceived by someone as aggression or danger to the baby. So I'll figure out how to train him without loosing it and we will all be better for it....
That's about all I've got going on here. Goals for today include packing bags for hospital (just in case and to be ready) and working on Sancho training.
Happy Memorial Day weekend to you!
Friday, March 20, 2015
Happy Match Day, Happy Friday, Happy Mom-to-be!
Happy.
It has been awhile.... Awhile since i've blogged, and awhile since I've been happy.
But I am doing both now.
First of all, congrats to all those who matched today. I remember match day and it was a good day. So much fun, so much excitement. The anticipation! And then the relief and joy!!!
Our program (Pediatrics) filled and we got our first three choices for Pedi Neuro candidates which makes me quite happy! (Also all three spots went to women! Yes we do hold up half the sky, thank you very much!)
I have been struggling a bit over the past few months and I think it was due to to a multitude of factors. Fatigue, a difficult schedule with lots of back to back-call/ER/call-months and a bunch of sick patients, chronic patients, emotionally difficult to deal with patients and a very busy time at the hospital with a ton of volume and not a lot of support. Add in pregnancy and it was enough to make me want to give up, quit and retreat to Greece with my dog, husband, a books to sustain me.
But I somehow made it through and here I am, just two weeks away from being done with night float, call or anything inpatient until fellowship! And that is a good feeling.
Oh and another reason to be happy. I'm pregnant and viable at 26 weeks today. Of course I'm quite content for baby to stay safe inside for another 11+ weeks but I can breathe a sigh of relief. My pregnancy while not perfect or fun or glamorous hasn't been that bad. I'm heathy and she is perfect so far as we can tell and that makes me very happy!
So here is a happy dance for you because I feel like we should celebrate. I hope to get back to this blog now that I'm out of my tunnel of darkness and have a bit more time. I have much to reflect upon and share from my second year of residency but for today I simple want to be happy!
It has been awhile.... Awhile since i've blogged, and awhile since I've been happy.
But I am doing both now.
First of all, congrats to all those who matched today. I remember match day and it was a good day. So much fun, so much excitement. The anticipation! And then the relief and joy!!!
Our program (Pediatrics) filled and we got our first three choices for Pedi Neuro candidates which makes me quite happy! (Also all three spots went to women! Yes we do hold up half the sky, thank you very much!)
I have been struggling a bit over the past few months and I think it was due to to a multitude of factors. Fatigue, a difficult schedule with lots of back to back-call/ER/call-months and a bunch of sick patients, chronic patients, emotionally difficult to deal with patients and a very busy time at the hospital with a ton of volume and not a lot of support. Add in pregnancy and it was enough to make me want to give up, quit and retreat to Greece with my dog, husband, a books to sustain me.
But I somehow made it through and here I am, just two weeks away from being done with night float, call or anything inpatient until fellowship! And that is a good feeling.
Oh and another reason to be happy. I'm pregnant and viable at 26 weeks today. Of course I'm quite content for baby to stay safe inside for another 11+ weeks but I can breathe a sigh of relief. My pregnancy while not perfect or fun or glamorous hasn't been that bad. I'm heathy and she is perfect so far as we can tell and that makes me very happy!
So here is a happy dance for you because I feel like we should celebrate. I hope to get back to this blog now that I'm out of my tunnel of darkness and have a bit more time. I have much to reflect upon and share from my second year of residency but for today I simple want to be happy!
Thursday, August 21, 2014
Just like that
Just like that, everything changes.
One day I was an intern, the next a second year!
One day I was a fur parent, the next planning for a baby (maybe).
One day I was a renter, the next a proud house owner.
It has been an eventful month to say the least. Lots of changes and exciting things happening around here.
Life is good. Happy Thursday to you!
One day I was an intern, the next a second year!
One day I was a fur parent, the next planning for a baby (maybe).
One day I was a renter, the next a proud house owner.
Life is good. Happy Thursday to you!
Monday, June 23, 2014
and then she was two (pgy-2)
Wow!
Complete.
Done.
After today I will officially be finished with intern year. It is a great feeling.
This year flew by. I had my days and months even when I was tired, anxious, self-doubting but I had many more good days and the months turned into a year and now I'm a big, bad grown up second year. Resident still, yes. Intern, hell NO!
Anyhow. It has been a journey. But a good one. I finished off on Development and Behavior which is technically a 2nd year rotation (but because I'm Pedi Neuro we get that instead of Pedi Neuro intern year) so I've been done with the intern/team pager and phone, countless progress notes and all that fun intern jazz for awhile now. No complaints here. Today I get to go to daycare, observe different aged kids normal behavior and then go the the ECI office to learn about Early Childhood Intervention in this great state of Texas. And that is all. Then it is Happy Night with my co-no-longer interns to celebrate.
Life is good. Second year is going to rock. Bring it!
Complete.
Done.
After today I will officially be finished with intern year. It is a great feeling.
This year flew by. I had my days and months even when I was tired, anxious, self-doubting but I had many more good days and the months turned into a year and now I'm a big, bad grown up second year. Resident still, yes. Intern, hell NO!
Anyhow. It has been a journey. But a good one. I finished off on Development and Behavior which is technically a 2nd year rotation (but because I'm Pedi Neuro we get that instead of Pedi Neuro intern year) so I've been done with the intern/team pager and phone, countless progress notes and all that fun intern jazz for awhile now. No complaints here. Today I get to go to daycare, observe different aged kids normal behavior and then go the the ECI office to learn about Early Childhood Intervention in this great state of Texas. And that is all. Then it is Happy Night with my co-no-longer interns to celebrate.
Life is good. Second year is going to rock. Bring it!
Wednesday, May 28, 2014
Maya, reflecting, poem of the day
First of all I'm reflecting on the recent passing of Mayo Angelo. Poet, author, dancer, feminist and activist. An all around amazing woman. This is one of her earlier poems... it says so much, so well.
Still I Rise
Maya Angelou, 1928-2014
You may write me down in history With your bitter, twisted lies, You may trod me in the very dirt But still, like dust, I’ll rise. Does my sassiness upset you? Why are you beset with gloom? ‘Cause I walk like I’ve got oil wells Pumping in my living room. Just like moons and like suns, With the certainty of tides, Just like hopes springing high, Still I’ll rise. Did you want to see me broken? Bowed head and lowered eyes? Shoulders falling down like teardrops, Weakened by my soulful cries? Does my haughtiness offend you? Don’t you take it awful hard ‘Cause I laugh like I’ve got gold mines Diggin’ in my own backyard. You may shoot me with your words, You may cut me with your eyes, You may kill me with your hatefulness, But still, like air, I’ll rise. Does my sexiness upset you? Does it come as a surprise That I dance like I’ve got diamonds At the meeting of my thighs? Out of the huts of history’s shame I rise Up from a past that’s rooted in pain I rise I’m a black ocean, leaping and wide, Welling and swelling I bear in the tide. Leaving behind nights of terror and fear I rise Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear I rise Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave, I am the dream and the hope of the slave. I rise I rise I rise.
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And it also seems a bit apropos for the end of intern year. Intern year where is seems like many days/weeks/months I was burned out, tired, trampled on and shot with words. And yes I realize that this is NOT what Maya was writing about but it is a beautiful poem and I think my analogy also works.
Enjoying my day off surfing the internet, drinking coffee and daydreaming. The weather is rainy and its a nice day to be inside catching up on stuff. Happy Hump Day to you too!
Thursday, May 15, 2014
NICU nights and cookies!
I'm on NICU and tonight will be my final night before switching back to days. So far it has been an okay month. It started off kind of slow and I was a wee bit bored but then I switched to nights and like all my other rotations on nights I kind of like it. The autonomy, the ability to talk to parents, the quiet, yada, yada.
I'm NOT loving the being woken to a sound of the pager and having approximately one minute to wake up from dead asleep and sprint to delivery to help with baby resuscitation. Jarring and scary and not fun. But otherwise, NICU is okay. Minus the math.
One more month of intern year. It was hard and not that bad and awful and great - depending upon the day, the moment, the month. But I've made it (well almost) I signed my contract for next year so I would have to really mess up now to NOT be a PGY-2 in just 45 short days. Woo hoo!
That is all I've got. Oh and it is national chocolate chip cookie day so I need to go bake. Recipe lifted from some blog way back in my med school days. I tried quite a few and think this one really is closest to the coveted Doubletree cookies. Enjoy!
1/2 cup rolled oats
2 1/4 cups all-purpose flour
1 1/2 teaspoons baking soda
1 teaspoon salt 1/4 teaspoon cinnamon
1 cup (2 sticks) butter, softened
3/4 cup brown sugar, packed
3/4 cup granulated sugar
1 1/2 teaspoons vanilla
1/2 teaspoon lemon juice
2 eggs
3 cups semi-sweet chocolate chips
1 1/2 cups chopped walnuts
1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees.
2. Grind oats in a food processor or blender until fine. Combine the ground oats with the flour, baking soda, salt and cinnamon in a medium bowl.
3. Cream together the butter, sugars, vanilla, and lemon juice in another medium bowl with an electric mixer. Add the eggs and mix until smooth.
4. Stir the dry mixture into the wet mixture and blend well. Add the chocolate chips and nuts to the dough and mix by hand until ingredients are well-incorporated.
5. Spoon rounded 1/4-cup portions onto an ungreased cookie sheet. Place the scoops about 2 inches apart. You don't need to press the dough flat. Bake for 16-18 minutes or until cookies are light brown and soft in the middle. Store in a sealed container when cool to keep soft. For the best results, chill the dough overnight in the refrigerator before baking the cookies. Makes 20 cookies.
Monday, March 10, 2014
BP MS150 (aka- The 150 mile bike ride over 2 days from Houston to Austin to raise money and awareness for the MS society and those living with multiple sclerosis)
Join me!
Ride.
Volunteer.
Spread the word.
I ride to sponsor teens so that they can attend Adventure Camp.
I ride to support the MS Society as they provide many services for those with MS.
I ride because I can.
Please do what you can to help me in my efforts. MS sucks. But by fundraising we are making a difference in the lives of those with MS.
Make my day, sponsor me to ride one of the 150 miles from Houston to Austin. For only $10 you get a mile in your honor (I'll send you a picture from the ride and name the mile for you.)
Just 33 days to go.
I need your help.
Thank you!
sick
sick. just plain old cough, sore throat, nasal congestion, headache, sick. NOT sick, sick like some of my kiddos in the hospital. but for sure i got sick from one of those kiddos...
anyhow. just reflecting on my month of wards so far. starting on nights is way different. i like nights for the ability to talk to patients and do things at my own pace. i love the autonomy and the time i get to spend with the med students. i hate being tired and falling asleep while trying to write or dictate notes. i hate the groggy feeling of not caring anymore and just wanting to be home in bed already....
daylight savings night was especially hard. i had rode 60 miles that day for MS150 training so i was physically tired and i hadn't slept much the night before so i was running on only 4 hours of sleep in the past 24 hours going into the night and then because of spring ahead (yay, one less hour to work) i had one less hour to get everything done and we were busy. even my "easy" admit wasn't easy... her mother only spoke Spanish and there were no Spanish staff to be found, the phone interpreter was hard to hear, the consulting service didn't want to be consulted, etc, etc. all night and morning long. and then is started feeling sick with a scratchy sore throat and a cough but that was back seat to admits and progress notes to write. and my co-intern had the day off so that meant double the notes for the morning.. and before i knew it, it was time to round and i had not finished a single note. At 10am when they force me to leave (duty hour violations) i was so tired i was falling asleep on my feet so there was NO way i could do notes then. i came home slept for a few hours and then work up to finish my work. and when i woke up i was full on sick. but at least i have today to sleep and recoup before tonight.
nights are more than half over, just 3 more to go and then it is on to days and crazy, busy, admit, discharge, work.... but it is my last month of wards as an intern! next time i'm on wards i will be the upper, which is crazy to think about. but i'm feeling more confident and i think i'm ready, or will be. so long as i figure out how to function without sleep.
intern year is going to be over in a flash. just nursery, NICU and behavior and development to go. then i'll be a big, bad 2nd year! wow. time flies.
i'm sick. but happy. i love my job. and that is all i have on this monday morning.
happy first monday after daylight savings to you!
anyhow. just reflecting on my month of wards so far. starting on nights is way different. i like nights for the ability to talk to patients and do things at my own pace. i love the autonomy and the time i get to spend with the med students. i hate being tired and falling asleep while trying to write or dictate notes. i hate the groggy feeling of not caring anymore and just wanting to be home in bed already....
daylight savings night was especially hard. i had rode 60 miles that day for MS150 training so i was physically tired and i hadn't slept much the night before so i was running on only 4 hours of sleep in the past 24 hours going into the night and then because of spring ahead (yay, one less hour to work) i had one less hour to get everything done and we were busy. even my "easy" admit wasn't easy... her mother only spoke Spanish and there were no Spanish staff to be found, the phone interpreter was hard to hear, the consulting service didn't want to be consulted, etc, etc. all night and morning long. and then is started feeling sick with a scratchy sore throat and a cough but that was back seat to admits and progress notes to write. and my co-intern had the day off so that meant double the notes for the morning.. and before i knew it, it was time to round and i had not finished a single note. At 10am when they force me to leave (duty hour violations) i was so tired i was falling asleep on my feet so there was NO way i could do notes then. i came home slept for a few hours and then work up to finish my work. and when i woke up i was full on sick. but at least i have today to sleep and recoup before tonight.
nights are more than half over, just 3 more to go and then it is on to days and crazy, busy, admit, discharge, work.... but it is my last month of wards as an intern! next time i'm on wards i will be the upper, which is crazy to think about. but i'm feeling more confident and i think i'm ready, or will be. so long as i figure out how to function without sleep.
intern year is going to be over in a flash. just nursery, NICU and behavior and development to go. then i'll be a big, bad 2nd year! wow. time flies.
i'm sick. but happy. i love my job. and that is all i have on this monday morning.
happy first monday after daylight savings to you!
Thursday, March 6, 2014
Awash in Memories
Grenada.
The walk at sunset....
Medical school friends that became friends for life. An Island Away. Quiet spots. An early morning kayak.
Life is good. It is. I like being a resident and I like going to work (most days). I'm back on wards and I started on nights so it I have some free daytime to enjoy life while also getting back in the swing of things. Inpatient medicine is fast paced, stressful, full of admissions, notes and sometimes not the fun stuff. Sick patients, stressed parents, tired staff BUT there is also the nightly rounding, patient and parent interactions that happen and don't feel quite so rushed, autonomy, fun with other tired residents and a quietness that is just not possible during the day. So that is good.
But I've been nostalgic lately. Missing Grenanda. Missing San Diego. Missing the past. Not in an heartbreaking awful way just happy memories and reflections on the joy and simplicity that some of the past held.
That is all I have on this Thursday morning. Headed out to pamper myself with a mani/pedi and haircut. Much needed. And then nap. And then work.
The walk at sunset....
Medical school friends that became friends for life. An Island Away. Quiet spots. An early morning kayak.
Life is good. It is. I like being a resident and I like going to work (most days). I'm back on wards and I started on nights so it I have some free daytime to enjoy life while also getting back in the swing of things. Inpatient medicine is fast paced, stressful, full of admissions, notes and sometimes not the fun stuff. Sick patients, stressed parents, tired staff BUT there is also the nightly rounding, patient and parent interactions that happen and don't feel quite so rushed, autonomy, fun with other tired residents and a quietness that is just not possible during the day. So that is good.
But I've been nostalgic lately. Missing Grenanda. Missing San Diego. Missing the past. Not in an heartbreaking awful way just happy memories and reflections on the joy and simplicity that some of the past held.
That is all I have on this Thursday morning. Headed out to pamper myself with a mani/pedi and haircut. Much needed. And then nap. And then work.
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Heart Full
Happy belated Valentine's Day! I know it is just a cheesy Hallmark day and that everyone day should be a day of love... but I still enjoy the day. I always enjoyed exchanging Valentines, and I still do.
Also I'm on an amazing month of ambulatory medicine. All clinics. No weekends. No wards. Days off to work on scholarly projects and study for Step 3. Days off to take step 3. Vacation. A good month. Did I mention weekends, off? I've have a ton of free time and Dr. Boyfriend and I have been making good use of it. We went to NOLA for a long weekend, we've gone to brunch and had late nights and lunch dates. A good month.
Also the medicine is good too. I got to go to Pedi Neuro clinic yesterday morning, swoon.... Loved the attending, interesting patients. And then my continuity clinic in the afternoon, which is always good. So all in all a good day. A good month.
My heart is full. I like where I am. I love my colleagues and Texas is good for us. I am happy to live with Dr. Boyfriend (finally!) and we love Sancho. I have much to be thankful for. And I am.
I hope you had a good day of love dear reader. Happy February and happy Wednesday!
Thursday, January 30, 2014
Why I like working nights.... and shameless plug for the MS 150!
1. It is quiet.
2. I get to work on my own schedule.
3. Minimal BS. Skeleton crew and tired staff meaning people work more efficiently in hopes of getting a chance to nap/rest. But there is plenty of time to hang out too!
4. There is time to hold a baby, or 3 babies like I did last night.
5. There is time to talk to a patient's parents for as long as they want and answer as many questions as they want.
6. It is quiet and calm and you have an autonomy that doesn't exist during the day...
7. You get to backwards commute and parking is never an issue.
8. Breakfast with the hubby.
9. Daytime dog walks and trips to the dog park.
10. You get time off during the day to normal people things like shop or go to the post-office.
That's my short list. I'm just finishing a month of wards and then I go to clinic for the month. Life is good. Intern year in more than half way over and all is well over here.
Donate now and sponsor me to ride one or two of the 166 miles from here to Austin on April 12th and 13th.
Only 72 days until the MS 150! And sponsors that donate by the end of the month will have a chance to win a $25 Starbucks card, so what are you waiting on?!?
2. I get to work on my own schedule.
3. Minimal BS. Skeleton crew and tired staff meaning people work more efficiently in hopes of getting a chance to nap/rest. But there is plenty of time to hang out too!
4. There is time to hold a baby, or 3 babies like I did last night.
5. There is time to talk to a patient's parents for as long as they want and answer as many questions as they want.
6. It is quiet and calm and you have an autonomy that doesn't exist during the day...
7. You get to backwards commute and parking is never an issue.
8. Breakfast with the hubby.
9. Daytime dog walks and trips to the dog park.
10. You get time off during the day to normal people things like shop or go to the post-office.
That's my short list. I'm just finishing a month of wards and then I go to clinic for the month. Life is good. Intern year in more than half way over and all is well over here.
Donate now and sponsor me to ride one or two of the 166 miles from here to Austin on April 12th and 13th.
Thursday, December 26, 2013
Merry Belated Christmas Wishes!
So, I've been sucked into the vortex of residency. But that doesn't mean I'm done with this blog. Life has been busy, but it has also been very good. I worked both the 24th and 25th but it was okay, because someone has to work and because I volunteered my co-interns got the days off to enjoy the holiday. And I enjoyed being at work, I did. Lots of Christmas cheer, Santa sightings and tons of holiday spirit in spite if it all. Being a kid in the hospital is never fun but especially not at Christmas and so yesterday we tried to make the most if it. Silly hats that sing and lighted scarves were just part of the fun.
In other news, I cannot believe that intern year is half over! Hooray! (Gulp.) Wow, how time flies...
I'm actually enjoying nephrology. And next month I'm back on inpatient wards but at our community/county hospital so that will be good. And then I get to take Step 3 in February. And then vacation!!! So very exciting. So that's what's up with me.
I've decked out our pedi lounge for the holidays and that makes me happy. Belated Merry Christmas wishes to you. And a very happy new New Year too!
P.S. Anyone wear a tacky Christmas sweater on the 24th? I did and it was awesome, not quite as bright as the one pictures above, which I am ordering it now for next year, yay!
Thursday, December 19, 2013
Christmas countdown, life and reflections of an intern year almost half over!
Hi all,
I am still here. Sorry if you have been looking for me and I've been MIA. You know, this thing called residency is happening. Doesn't leave too much time for other stuff.
Although my parents did visit Houston for 10 days in October, poor Dr Boyfriend had to do most of the entertaining as I was pulled to MDA (oncology) at the last minute. MDA is suppose to be our hardest month and it was not fun but I survived so I do have that going for me.
Also, Christmas is in 6 days and I am unbelievably excited this year. I have decorated the resident lounge and bought mini stockings for each of us to hang. It makes me very happy. Also (a word I'm using way too much this blog post, sorry about that) I have decided it is okay to wear corny holiday themed antlers and headbands and scarves and hats and all things tacky since I am a pediatrican after all. And I want others to as well so I have declared December 24th, the official wear your tacky Christmas sweater (to work) day! You can participate too, I'd love pictures if you do. If you have to work the holiday you may as well have fun while doing it, that it my motto anyhow.
I'm up early this morning. Presents are wrapped. Cookies are baked. I do have some clinic notes to complete though..... but blogging is more fun.
Oh and random links, just because:
1. interesting, my future research is going to do with this i think:
EverythingHealth: The Microbiome
2. fun gift ideas for the last minute hard to shop for person on your list: http://gifts.rescue.org
3. just because: http://www.pinterest.com/pin/72057662761780782/
Merry Christmas!!!!
P.S. Don't forget- tacky sweater on 12/24. And the best way to spread Christmas cheer? Singing loud for all to hear!
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
C is for...
team C!
I'm back on wards and starting on nights. I figure I kind of know what I'm doing this time around and instead of endure it, I'm embracing.
team C as in Cat!
I found our mascot. And have plenty of Candy including Candy Corn. It may also be reason to Celebrate the month of Colorful Costumes and pumpkins with Candles!! And yes, I might be Crazy,
C is for Crazy, lets go Team C!
I need costume ideas... C is for Countdown and just 30 days until Colorful Crazy Costume Day!
What are you going to be dear reader?
I'm back on wards and starting on nights. I figure I kind of know what I'm doing this time around and instead of endure it, I'm embracing.
team C as in Cat!
I found our mascot. And have plenty of Candy including Candy Corn. It may also be reason to Celebrate the month of Colorful Costumes and pumpkins with Candles!! And yes, I might be Crazy,
C is for Crazy, lets go Team C!
I need costume ideas... C is for Countdown and just 30 days until Colorful Crazy Costume Day!
What are you going to be dear reader?
Monday, September 2, 2013
mimosa, samosa... life after wards
Wards is over, I made it! There were many times in the past month that I doubted my desire to do this. To be a doctor. To complete residency. Multiple days/nights when I just did not want to go to work.... But yesterday at 10am when I walked out of the hospital I felt accomplished. And my spirits climbed as I brunched and shared multiple pitchers of mimosas and good company.
My collapse into bed followed by wonderful sleep before meeting my awesome wards team for outdoor theatre fun in the form of Bollywood dance made yesterday the perfect ending. I had a good day, a good month. I am now that much more confident that I can do this job. And more importantly that I still want to.
Nights were difficult for me. I feel into a semi depression and despite the actual free time I only slept and worked. It is only now as the nights and memories of them recede that I feel myself again. The reading, the to do list, that didn't happen... but it is okay, because I survived and came out the other side and I'm still here. And now I have energy and optimism once again.
A sampling of what I saw last night, I just LOVE Indian culture/dance/food!
Monday, August 19, 2013
Night after day after night...
Residency day 57.
Well actually night 2, as I am officially on nights. We have kind of an odd system when on wards where you work every other night for two weeks. Saturday was my first "night" and it was rough because I haven't had to stay awake for 30 hours straight in a very long time. I was falling asleep while writing up my H&Ps and that was an awful feeling. I will be prepared tonight with gum, candy and an extra cup of coffee for 3am. The every other night off is kind of odd. 16 hours on. 30 hours off. In theory that sounds nice but it hard to get on a schedule. I had planned to simply sleep all day and then use my off night to read, do things around the house, etc but I guess that residency caught up with me because I simply slept for 18 out of the last 24 hours. Ooops. Now I have all day "off" before I got to work tonight and it is not the weekend and so Dr Boyfriend is at work and I have the house to myself. So what to do... Finally, I can read! I am so behind in everything, it will be nice to read about medicine and not medicine. I need to go join the Houston Public Library. And grocery shop and bake and lounge and do laundry. And exercise. And finish my graduation thank you notes. Yes, residency has kept me busy. My to do list is long. So I'm thankful for the time right now to catch up.
Otherwise I really don't have much to say. Inpatient wards is busy, good, horrible, awful, scary and/or fun depending upon the moment in time. I hated my first week and rather enjoyed my second week. I like the patient care aspect of it and struggled with the documentation aspect. There is never time to write good thorough notes and yet I know that notes are super important and without good documentation it is difficult to practice good medicine. And yet I struggled with this daily. I can only hope I get more efficient as time goes on. I am trying to dictate but that has pitfalls too. Being an intern is about doing paperwork, calling the consults, updating the lists and admitting/discharging patients. I ended up staying late to talk to parents, answer questions, etc because there really just isn't time during the day for that aspect and it is the education part of doctoring that I so love.
Time to work on my to do list, and maybe walk my dog. Happy Monday to you!
Well actually night 2, as I am officially on nights. We have kind of an odd system when on wards where you work every other night for two weeks. Saturday was my first "night" and it was rough because I haven't had to stay awake for 30 hours straight in a very long time. I was falling asleep while writing up my H&Ps and that was an awful feeling. I will be prepared tonight with gum, candy and an extra cup of coffee for 3am. The every other night off is kind of odd. 16 hours on. 30 hours off. In theory that sounds nice but it hard to get on a schedule. I had planned to simply sleep all day and then use my off night to read, do things around the house, etc but I guess that residency caught up with me because I simply slept for 18 out of the last 24 hours. Ooops. Now I have all day "off" before I got to work tonight and it is not the weekend and so Dr Boyfriend is at work and I have the house to myself. So what to do... Finally, I can read! I am so behind in everything, it will be nice to read about medicine and not medicine. I need to go join the Houston Public Library. And grocery shop and bake and lounge and do laundry. And exercise. And finish my graduation thank you notes. Yes, residency has kept me busy. My to do list is long. So I'm thankful for the time right now to catch up.
Otherwise I really don't have much to say. Inpatient wards is busy, good, horrible, awful, scary and/or fun depending upon the moment in time. I hated my first week and rather enjoyed my second week. I like the patient care aspect of it and struggled with the documentation aspect. There is never time to write good thorough notes and yet I know that notes are super important and without good documentation it is difficult to practice good medicine. And yet I struggled with this daily. I can only hope I get more efficient as time goes on. I am trying to dictate but that has pitfalls too. Being an intern is about doing paperwork, calling the consults, updating the lists and admitting/discharging patients. I ended up staying late to talk to parents, answer questions, etc because there really just isn't time during the day for that aspect and it is the education part of doctoring that I so love.
Time to work on my to do list, and maybe walk my dog. Happy Monday to you!
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Residency, day 48... feels like 539
I am now about to start my eighth week of residency, crazy huh?
I finally get today off after 12 days on and it is a glorious feeling to have an entire day to myself without a pager or need to set foot in the hospital! (Minus those delinquent discharge summaries to finish.) Thursday was maybe the second hardest day of residency.... more lows, more tears, a migraine, a screaming child, not enough hours in the day to take care of everyone and myself. But then it was Friday and I had one of the best days of residency. I utilized my medical students and I took the time to pre-round with them. We were efficient on rounds and I made it to noon conference with a hot lunch in hand. I made decisions by myself. I admitted two patients, discharged three, supervised my med student talking out his first PICC line and almost made it out in time with only an hour worth of notes to finish when I got home. I survived my first week and half of inpatient wards and I see the light... five more days on and then I switch to nights for the rest of the month. So all in all, I'm okay.
More than okay. I'm surviving despite what I felt like was going to be the worst month of my life. Some days have been quite craptacular. I feel like a glorified secretary. I haven't been reading like I know I should. My sick patients scare me. I think the medical students know more than I do. I feel slow and have yet to finish my progress notes before rounds or even before lunch time. I am not good at multi-tasking. I am an intern. But I notice that I'm faster than I was a week ago and more confident each day than the day before. I am figuring out the little things and those make a big difference.
Residency is hard. I'm awake at 5am on my single day off in two weeks. I could complain about many things. But I also realize that I'm lucky. I'm doing what I have always wanted to do and the little things add up. The educating patients and supervising med students and being responsible for my own time.
I'm happy. Exhausted. But happy. Enjoy your Saturday, I know I will enjoy mine!
I finally get today off after 12 days on and it is a glorious feeling to have an entire day to myself without a pager or need to set foot in the hospital! (Minus those delinquent discharge summaries to finish.) Thursday was maybe the second hardest day of residency.... more lows, more tears, a migraine, a screaming child, not enough hours in the day to take care of everyone and myself. But then it was Friday and I had one of the best days of residency. I utilized my medical students and I took the time to pre-round with them. We were efficient on rounds and I made it to noon conference with a hot lunch in hand. I made decisions by myself. I admitted two patients, discharged three, supervised my med student talking out his first PICC line and almost made it out in time with only an hour worth of notes to finish when I got home. I survived my first week and half of inpatient wards and I see the light... five more days on and then I switch to nights for the rest of the month. So all in all, I'm okay.
More than okay. I'm surviving despite what I felt like was going to be the worst month of my life. Some days have been quite craptacular. I feel like a glorified secretary. I haven't been reading like I know I should. My sick patients scare me. I think the medical students know more than I do. I feel slow and have yet to finish my progress notes before rounds or even before lunch time. I am not good at multi-tasking. I am an intern. But I notice that I'm faster than I was a week ago and more confident each day than the day before. I am figuring out the little things and those make a big difference.
Residency is hard. I'm awake at 5am on my single day off in two weeks. I could complain about many things. But I also realize that I'm lucky. I'm doing what I have always wanted to do and the little things add up. The educating patients and supervising med students and being responsible for my own time.
I'm happy. Exhausted. But happy. Enjoy your Saturday, I know I will enjoy mine!
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Golden Weekends
In residency having two days off in a row is kind of a big deal. So much so that it has its own name. golden weekend.

And since residency has started this is my first golden weekend. Although working 12 days straight kind of sucks I think I'd rather do that once if it means I get a golden weekend in return. There is something magical and restorative about having two days off in a row. Yesterday I cleaned, exercised, hung out with hubby and my Sancho, slept in, met co-residents for a drink, furniture shopped and watched a movie. It was a pretty great day off and now I still have today to read, study, BBQ w/friends, swim, grocery shop and finish laundry. By Monday I'll be ready to work which is good because I start inpatient floor this week. just three more days of ID left. I think I'm ready, ID was a great intro but it will be nice to be the primary provider and not simply a consultant...
I've survived my first month of residency, I adore my co-residents and I don't imagine I'll ever grow tired of newborn babies or toddling kiddos or sultry teenagers, peds is awesome and I'm reflecting on just how blessed I am this early golden weekend Sunday.
Happy weekend to you!
And since residency has started this is my first golden weekend. Although working 12 days straight kind of sucks I think I'd rather do that once if it means I get a golden weekend in return. There is something magical and restorative about having two days off in a row. Yesterday I cleaned, exercised, hung out with hubby and my Sancho, slept in, met co-residents for a drink, furniture shopped and watched a movie. It was a pretty great day off and now I still have today to read, study, BBQ w/friends, swim, grocery shop and finish laundry. By Monday I'll be ready to work which is good because I start inpatient floor this week. just three more days of ID left. I think I'm ready, ID was a great intro but it will be nice to be the primary provider and not simply a consultant...
I've survived my first month of residency, I adore my co-residents and I don't imagine I'll ever grow tired of newborn babies or toddling kiddos or sultry teenagers, peds is awesome and I'm reflecting on just how blessed I am this early golden weekend Sunday.
Happy weekend to you!
Sunday, July 21, 2013
Play by play (aka a day in the life...)
6:05 awake, blogging, reading, working on ppt presentation for Monday. Plan for day: ID round and home by noon to enjoy my Saturday.
7:15 phone call from chief resident informing me I'm on back up jeopardy call and that I'm needed in the floor to fill in for sick intern. Team is admitting and has 6 old pts for whom I need to see/write notes.
8:30 walking into hospital, contacting ID attending to inform her of my extra duties, only mildly freaking out. (Times I've worked on Floor team= 0.!!!!)
9:00 pre-round w/ med student, see pts, start notes
10:00 round with ID attending
10:30 round with Team, love my med students!
12:30 get sign out from ID attending
Get sign out from well nursery, inherit pager and 8 babies
2:00 notes, team stuff
2:30 admit new pt in respiratory distress
4:00 notes, coffee, chit chat with the other weekend warriors
6:00 sign out
7:30 complete ID note
8:00 finish admit H&P
9:00 home, dinner, final episode of Orange is the New Black
10:30 finish ppt for Mon
12:00 edit notes in bed, pre-round on ID census in prep for Sun rounds
12:30 sleep
7:15 phone call from chief resident informing me I'm on back up jeopardy call and that I'm needed in the floor to fill in for sick intern. Team is admitting and has 6 old pts for whom I need to see/write notes.
8:30 walking into hospital, contacting ID attending to inform her of my extra duties, only mildly freaking out. (Times I've worked on Floor team= 0.!!!!)
9:00 pre-round w/ med student, see pts, start notes
10:00 round with ID attending
10:30 round with Team, love my med students!
12:30 get sign out from ID attending
Get sign out from well nursery, inherit pager and 8 babies
2:00 notes, team stuff
2:30 admit new pt in respiratory distress
4:00 notes, coffee, chit chat with the other weekend warriors
6:00 sign out
7:30 complete ID note
8:00 finish admit H&P
9:00 home, dinner, final episode of Orange is the New Black
10:30 finish ppt for Mon
12:00 edit notes in bed, pre-round on ID census in prep for Sun rounds
12:30 sleep
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